Starts With Goodbye

Sometimes the best parts of life start with goodbye. i believe this. If i hadn't said goodbye to different people, situations, and places in my life, then i wouldn't be here. i wouldn't have some of the things/memories/people i value most. Saying goodbye is a part of life. It's a part i don't like most of the time, but it's necessary to grow and change. i want to change this summer, i want to change my self, change my surroundings, change my life. And that means i'm gonna have to say goodbye to some things.
Things like my job. i like my boss, and there are things i like about my job, but i'm not moving forward in the company. There's no where to go, really, in a family-owned business... when you're not part of the family. And that's ok, this job has been good for me, i've learned a lot. But it's time for me to move on.
Another thing i'm gonna have to say goodbye to is my family, in some ways. i'm going to move out. i won't be around to help them as much as i do now. i think spending so many weeks at camp this summer will help them get used to it. i'll be home most weekends and afew scattered weeks, so i'm not completely gone yet, but this gives them time to get used to it before i disappear of the face of earth... Or move to the other side of town ;)
i'm also having to say goodbye to a lot of people, weather they're moving away or we're just growing apart, i have to say goodbye. i miss them already... But i know we're not meant to be amazing friends, or at least not anymore. Most not ever, tho heaven knows we tried! And the ones that i was close too, well we've grown apart. We're not who we were, and we're not really on the same page anymore. i cherish my memories and photos, i'll always remember them, but we can't really share life like we used too. We grew up in different ways, into different futures. It's sad, but that's how life is sometimes.
Saying goodbye isn't something i enjoy, but sometimes it's the starting point of a better future. i hate to say goodbye to all this, but i have a pretty incredible future ahead of me if i just leave parts of this life behind.
It comes down to a choice.... i'm choosing this new life, and whatever it brings with it.