"God, i don't understand why? i know this is your will, i know this is best, but why? Why let this happen? i've said you do everything for a reason, why let something seem almost in reach, and then pull it away? i gave you a challenge: change my heart, show me that what i believe is wrong. You started that! My heart was changing, and now you're just gonna stop? What is this game?
Why did you let me get so close? What good did it do? Now I'm back where i started, but even more hurt, more alone. Because this time, i was ready to believe, i was ready to trust. i thought maybe... maybe it wasn't just a story. Maybe it could be real.
i know you have a plan, but can't you please show it to me? i don't understand God, i don't understand.
Please, God, give me faith. Show me your will. Help me to trust you, even if i don't know why. i need you, God, i need you even more now."
i hate it when that happens
ReplyDeleteIt's at our worst that God shows us His best. Keep holding on. He never fails, and when He moves, it's a sight truly indescribable.
ReplyDeletei know, i just have to have faith, and trust Him. Thats so hard for me, but i have to keep believeing "everything in His time". He's changed my heart for a reason, even if it isn't the reason i think/hope.
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