Growing Up

i've recently realized that i've grown up. i was thinking about a conversation i had last summer, about how we didn't want to grow up, we decided that we should run away to Never-land, or possible Wonderland, and never grow up. It's too late now, i've left the nursery, and i can't go back. It's kinda sad, i've lost the last bit of my childhood. i am now truly an adult. i've changed so much in just the last year, it's incredible. I'm not who i was. I'm almost a completely different person. My views on religion, relationships, life, it's all changed. Even my food preferences have changed. That's how i know I'm growing up. Thing is, I'm glad i've changed. i like the new me better. I'm more confident, I'm a lot happier, I'm more stable, i know what i want and I'm working to get it. I'm not done growing yet, i never will be, but I'm definitely growing up... i've left Wonderland.


"We grow fat on fantasy
I guess that's why I'm leaving
I crave reality
So goodbye Alice in Wonderland
Goodbye yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
I did not find paradise
It was only a reflection of my lonely mind wanting
What's been missing in my life

Growing up is not an absence of dreaming
It's being able to understand the difference between the ones you can hold
And the ones that you've been sold
And Dreaming is a good thing cause it brings new things to life
But pretending is an ending that perpetuates a lie
Forgetting what you are
Seeing for what you've been told

Ohh truth is stranger than fiction
This is my chance to get it right
And life is much better without all of those pretty lies

Ohh So Goodbye Alice in Wonderland
And you can keep your yellow brick road
There is a difference between dreaming and pretending
These are not tears in my eyes
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
They are only a reflection of my lonely mind finding
I found what's missing in my life"