Here I Go Moment

A "here i go moment" is defined as that moment when you give it all to God, and say "ok, God. i don't know whats ahead, i dont' understand, but i'm gonna trust you and follow even tho i dont' know what the future holds. It's in Your hands, i'm letting go."

i had a "Here i go moment" this summer. It was actually more than one moment, it was more like a month of struggling over a decision: To leave everything i know for the possibility of something better, or to stay where its familiar even if its not what i want. It was actually a lot harder than it sounds. i could stay in the church my dad attends, where i've gone for years, or i could trust God and follow Him into a whole new, different, unfamiliar place.

i have a hard time trusting God, and this was prolly the hardest thing i've ever done. i don't like trying new things alone, or getting out of my comfort zone. And this was definitely out of my comfort zone! i was supposed to leave everything i knew, and go someplace new where i didn't really know anyone, and i was supposed to do it by myself (w/o another person).

Someone told me that if it was of God and i followed Him, even if i didn't understand, he would bless me more than i could imagine.

It's been 5 months and i can't believe what God has done for me! Its incredible how much He's blessed me, far beyond what i expected. He has given me a wonderful group of people to rely on at my church, a place to serve there, and He's strengthened my relationships with my friends outside of my church body. He's answered prayer, and shown me more than ever His love.

There was one moment where it all came to a head. This was it. i could choose either one in that moment but it would be a final decision. If i chose to leave there would be no going back. i scared out of my mind! i was so afraid i was just doing what i wanted, cause i liked South Side better than Fair Grove. i almost didn't go thru with it, but i prayed and asked God to give me peace about leaving Fair Grove if it was what He wanted. Instantly i felt more at peace, and calm. i just knew God wanted me to do this.

i officially left Fair Grove on a Sunday afternoon, and i went to South Side that nite. During the service, i felt a complete sense of belonging. i knew right then that this was where God wanted me. No question. It was incredible! i felt like i'd come home. 

Five months later its still that way. i still feel at home when i walk in. This is my church, this is where i belong. And i can't wait to see what God has planned for me next!