Nathen & Leah

Nate & Leah,
You know I'm kind of disappointed in you two. i thought you would be different. You talked about being a church family, about how you'll always be there for us, no matter what. Leah, you said we were like sisters. Is this how you treat your sister? Really? i left the church. Yea i know it's a big deal. But i did what i felt God was leading me to do. When Rebecca left, or Michelle, or Amanda, you didn't write them off like you have me. i was part of you're youth group. i spent nights at your house, i talked to you about things I've never told my parents.
Why am i suddenly so distasteful? i know you see me, because i see you look away when i come into a room. i know you hear my messages on the answering machine, so why do you never call back? i know you read the emails i send you, so why do you never reply? Is it really that terrible that i followed my God? That i did what i believe he wanted me to do? It wasn't easy for me, ya know? It was hard to leave everything and start over somewhere new, alone. But i really thought you two would understand, you would still be a part of my life.
You know what really makes me mad tho? You didn't invite me to the party for Norman. i spent a lot of time talking to him this summer. i tried to reach out to him, i was on that trip too! i should get the chance to welcome him here. But you didn't give me that chance. i had to hear about the party the day before from my mom. i wasn't told anything about it. So i crashed it. i hope you're happy now. What was that like? To have someone uninvited, and unwanted in your house? And when i gave Norman my number, told him to call me, so we can hang out sometime... That must have killed you.
You know whats funny? The way you're acting, the way you treat me, that's one reason i left the church. i never thought that you two would act this way. And someone there i thought would act this way for sure, has reached out to me, and let me know they still want to be a part of my life. i didn't expect that. i guess you never really know someone, until it gets tough.
i thought you would behave better that this. i guess i thought wrong.